Vertigo
You have a three thousand piece jigsaw puzzle. But you donot have the picture. You sometimes know what shapes fit where. Most of the times, you don't.
There is a certain appeal though. You are attracted to something so much. It feels just right. But you donot want it.
"What is vertigo? Fear of falling? No, Vertigo is something other than fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves."
Milan Kundera, The unbearable lightness of being.
Is he then saying that one runs away from what one lusts after the most? That, if you love someone, it is a form of vertigo that whispers in your ear that you cannot belong?
Or, does Kundera refer to death? Death. In all its forms. Failure. Shame. Ridicule. Defeat. Mortality. The fear not of falling, but that of never being able to rise again.
A learned friend of mine said that a Buddhist saying might answer my questions. "He who has seen his own death has reached his peace "
But no, it hasn't. Sometimes knowing or understanding is just not good enough. It just is not good enough sometimes.
6 Comments:
Prat, Prat, Prat.... are you my Indian doppleganger?
Milan Kundera is my favorite author (well, up until Slowness, which was aptly titled....ugh)
Mmmmm, once had a wonderful discussion with someone based on this very topic. Except ours was in terms of balance. Is balance good? Not good? We always think we WANT balance, but what if imbalance is the motivating factor we need to drive us to accomplish? These dichotomies are what Kundera was driving at. Like not wanting that which we are attracted to.
Do people run from what they want the most. Yes, sometimes they do. We are flawed beings through and through.
Kundera raises such amazing questions. Or he used to. I still love him for it. I will forgive him his recent forays into what I think resulted in little more than mental masturbation (as opposed to his usual brilliant insights).
Thank you for this excellent post!
The vertigo is an aspect of attraction, its the memory of darker sins, it waits at the precipice slightly drunk smelling of recklessness & despair...
S!
everybody seems to be reading kundera nowadays. and they're all my friends. =)
interesting thoughts there....really like ur posts..and go through twice each time, which (to be my usual egotistical self) is quite rare.
keep them coming, and more variety, if thats not much an ask!
I go with Kundera.:-)
Squirrel, this is my first Kundera. And I now know which work to avoid.
" what if imbalance is the motivating factor we need to drive us to accomplish? "
That truly is a profound yet a very real question.
And thank you for your time!
S, your magical words continue to leave me in a spell. Your time and words flatter me, thankyou.
Transience, ya, seems like that. And everybody seems to be reading this one in particular. Amazing, since the book was written in 1984. Could this be the definition of a classic?
Uber, am on cloud 9. Will try, Captain!
Arunima, kudos to Kundera!
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